... california dreaming ...

Sunday, December 22, 2002

steps to disaster
step 1: crash a good friends date. hope to god that it doesn't burn"
step 2: visit an inmate. get threats from the cops and cookies from the neighbors.
3. mad car chase in a culdesac
4. sing to your friends parents. score brownie points for the future.
5. flashing. period.
6. have your car covered in shaving cream. professionally.
7. wake up the sleeping, bore those awake.
8.second mad car chase. stop chasing and get completely lost.


wonder how many nights you have left to be like this.

"How could she do somthing that stupid!?!?" "DAVID!!" "What?!! getting high is really bad for you!!!" "She said she's bi, not high..."

If only making all confessions were this easy.

I'm sick. really sick this time. i'm crossing my fingers. tightly at that. i'm breathing. I'm wishing i could just spit out how i feel. I'm wishing i could see you again. I'm going away. I'm still breathing....

Turntable Jessie 10:47 PM [+]
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no, I swear, I'm in love with the fantasy of it all. I wouldn't mind being tracked by an army of mosters, or being chased by a dragon... certainly wouldn't mind being whisked away with mr. right on his white horse.. but you know, chilling out in the cofee shop reading and daydreaming about rock and roll isn't too bad either...no, you really do know it.

"darn, you made me lose my combo."

Turntable Jessie 9:25 PM [+]
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No, that's not exactly true. Yes, i went to church to break down some walls. But the walls between God and myself? No, I can knock those over myself, when i choose to do so, thank you very much. Tonight we broke down the walls of the elderly's christmas luncheon. We threw the tinsel over the top and propped them back up against the door, said it was the wind, and ran... don't cry father tradition, we were completely in faith the whole time//

Turntable Jessie 9:32 PM [+]
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A light reflecting off the eye of a deer is much like the light one sees at death, much like that of a tunnel, much like that of hope.

Turntable Jessie 12:04 AM [+]
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And now i've spilt all that i have to the one group of people that are having trouble caring. But stay calm fellow readers, there is light: I am part of someone's journey. I am part of what someone wants to be. I have some one trying to break the law to see me.

I am learning to respect human kind.

Turntable Jessie 3:03 PM [+]
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His second glance satisfied my mind. Her childish words experienced my heart. But I still can't say that I'm sitting in a comfortable postion.

Turntable Jessie 4:06 PM [+]
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I need to have somthing real. I need sincerity.I need to live without being used. I need you to know that you aren't the only one.

I need a franciscan monk to bless my taxi unexpectadly.

Turntable Jessie 3:56 PM [+]
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i have fallen off the edge for the outcast, the underdog, the king of the underground.

and i can't say how i feel.

Turntable Jessie 10:40 AM [+]
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so, you're here. it's about time.

why can't the heroine fall for the villian? i'm sure that if she did, at least she could see what it's like to be happy. i'm sure if i did, i wouldn't mind it in the least.

and since when have sexual tendencies turned into peer pressure. come on, change your individuality forever, everbody's doing it.

flamboently single and incoherrently out of luck,
Jessie.. whoever that happens to be tonight

Turntable Jessie 12:38 AM [+]
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He waits on my computer screen. I wonder if he's really thinking of me. I wonder if i'm wasting my time.

Turntable Jessie 8:52 PM [+]
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i would like to introduce you all to possible happiness... go to www.midtownrock.com (use the link on the side of the page) and listen to their newest song, it's amazing.

all is well, all is in vain,. in other words, nothing is new...

Turntable Jessie 2:58 PM [+]
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Which is better: tot accept the fact that you have no one to trust, or to trust someone that you don't want to be around? This has come up very frequently lately... but I suppose that the bigger quwestion is if I really have the power to chose or not. I almost hope that I don't.

Turntable Jessie 2:09 PM [+]
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It's funny how you can throughly embarrass someone of athority, and they only become closer friends with you. I wonder if it's unjust...

Turntable Jessie 2:26 PM [+]
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HYPOCRISY: deception, falsity, pretense, impiety

I've always said that keeping an online journal was a bad idea. Too many people could see it, making it a simple cry for help. Now I've found out that life is full of bad ideas. This is what I've turned to, for now.

Turntable Jessie 8:01 PM [+]
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If I were half as interesting as my recycling system, I might not have to worry about high school.

Turntable Jessie 7:59 PM [+]
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