... california dreaming ...

Monday, November 17, 2008

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quotation of blog post: 2004.
(four years ago.)

i know bringing significant others to the posse is playing with fire, but you know what? i've never been this excited for thanksgiving before, so i'm willing to do it.

tonight both of our buildings (1300 people) had to eveacuate because some bitch on the 10th floor (an all girl floor from hell), burnt a bagel and the fire alarms went off. It sucked, but it was also a good exuse to stall studying and hang out for a while.

verdict? i am pro-fire alarm.


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quotation of blog post: 2005.
(three years ago.)

I don't know if i even want to go up to san jo this weekend. it's getting to the point that i don't know if it's better or worse for me. eh, well... considering the things that go on here over the weekend, i can hardly say it's good for me...

anyways, the bottom line is that no one will go to the beach with me to talk about ideas, and i'm really sick of going alone.

end.


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quotation of blog post: 2006:
(two years ago.)

Life was kinda depressingly rocky for a while, and still is.. i mean, there's rocky and then there's ROCKY... and i don't mean the movie (pat)... But this weird thing happened tonight where some shit happened that i usually wuld have gotten upset about, but i just.. didn't. Maybe it was the clear skies, maybe it was the shopping spree i had earlier, but I actually managed to react like a normal human being in a normal situation.

It was breathtaking.

P.S. I'm really excited to see everyone for thanksgiving.

P.P.S. The Olympus Stylus 720 was made for Jessie Horvath.

P.P.P.S. Boys? what? I mean really, what the fuck.


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quotation of blog post: 2007:
(unfortunately 1 year ago.)

**some song lyrics that had extraneous lyrics are extremely RARE!! I can only allow to spread your comics upon sincere request.**

Turntable Jessie 4:37 AM [+]
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And I quote:

"Tonight I begged and pleaded for attention. I got it, I fled.

The question really comes out when you wonder if revenge is actually justified."

Turntable Jessie 4:27 AM [+]
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"Me against the music,"????

"ME"... "Against" The Music??



How goddamn dare she.....

Turntable Jessie 4:25 AM [+]
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November 5:

I've been asked to read Lorca's "Blood Wedding" again.
It's funny, the only three words I can read in the whole play are:

"Do. Not. Love."

Such are the classics.

Turntable Jessie 4:21 AM [+]
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We're all tetris blocks. Different sizes, different formations... but we try to figure out how to fit together, regardless.


We're all just Waldos, that occasionally find each other.

Turntable Jessie 8:56 PM [+]
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The first rain has coincided with Halloween.

The pure water falls with the souls, the unsaved... the zombies, the attacks.. the ghosts, and the dreams... all pure and restless, like the coming of the storm.

I've opened my windows to let it all in, but the town remains the same. Girls talk, boys follow, freshman wander, and newspapers fire as if the first rain isn't the most important thing to occur.

The new season's air is around me. Tonic and foretelling, I welcome it's return. I sit on the porch, eager for more to transpire. I've prepared a store of food and literature to hold me over until spring, just in case the siege lasts longer than I anticipate.

Absentmindedly, I've lit the candle in the lantern, just in case he's wandering these streets, hoping to find me.

Turntable Jessie 3:47 AM [+]
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I look in your eyes,
I see possibility.
I see my own fire.

Turntable Jessie 11:42 PM [+]
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you seem as if you're proud of me,
but i think that you're just protecting me.
Do you know that you're in control of me?
Because you melt me. mend me. mold me,
You thrash me, paperback bend me,
and when i think that you're the end of me,
all i'm thinking of is you.

Turntable Jessie 11:42 PM [+]
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We used to laugh in reality:
real joy, real tears,
years before our time
you and i
Then we, unintentionally, laughed
in the face of reality
as if it was simply so far away
years before our time
you and i
and now we stand,

years before
lying to each other
our time
wasting our smiles in our darkest hours.
you and i

years before our time
you and i

if we hadn't built these walls
years
i could strecth to save you

before
to save what you had

our time.


but we were years before our time
you and i,

and we smile as if it were real.

Turntable Jessie 2:52 AM [+]
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If you wanted to sail, say,
to the center of the ocean,
and bind your hands
and bid goodbye,
i'd buy you the sail,
and i'd tie you up in bows.

But if sailing the ocean
take seven whole months,
don't settle for a lake,
and if I suggest satin ropes,
don't look to me in disgust.
consider my thoughts as important too.

Listen to your words,
find what it is to live,
and assure me you're sure,
teach me the knot,

If you knew how much i cared,
you wouldn't tell me i was wrong

Turntable Jessie 11:56 PM [+]
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We're drinking midnight rum,
we're hoping
still
still
that we can be more.
and we're sitting
recollecting,
our wills
against fate,
our wills
against each other,
my hand on your belt,
yours in my pocket,
we have time
time
slides by
along the clock
down my back
your spine
in your heart
in my hand
in your

and we'll never be more
my love, my last,
we'll never remember
to ever be more.

Turntable Jessie 11:20 PM [+]
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