... california dreaming ...

Sunday, November 30, 2003 how to fuck up a birthday (working title)

We used to laugh in reality:
real joy, real tears,
years before our time
you and i
Then we, unintentionally, laughed
in the face of reality
as if it was simply so far away
years before our time
you and i
and now we stand,

years before
lying to each other
our time
wasting our smiles in our darkest hours.
you and i

years before our time
you and i

if we hadn't built these walls
years
i could strecth to save you

before
to save what you had

our time.


but we were years before our time
you and i,

and we smile as if it were real.

Turntable Jessie 2:52 AM [+]
...

If you wanted to sail, say,
to the center of the ocean,
and bind your hands
and bid goodbye,
i'd buy you the sail,
and i'd tie you up in bows.

But if sailing the ocean
take seven whole months,
don't settle for a lake,
and if I suggest satin ropes,
don't look to me in disgust.
consider my thoughts as important too.

Listen to your words,
find what it is to live,
and assure me you're sure,
teach me the knot,

If you knew how much i cared,
you wouldn't tell me i was wrong

Turntable Jessie 11:56 PM [+]
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We're drinking midnight rum,
we're hoping
still
still
that we can be more.
and we're sitting
recollecting,
our wills
against fate,
our wills
against each other,
my hand on your belt,
yours in my pocket,
we have time
time
slides by
along the clock
down my back
your spine
in your heart
in my hand
in your

and we'll never be more
my love, my last,
we'll never remember
to ever be more.

Turntable Jessie 11:20 PM [+]
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